How to Survive Your Saturn Return: What the Hell Is the Saturn Return, Anyway?

[ A mindful disclaimer: I am neither in the possession of truth, nor do I have – as they say - monopoly on the truth. Everybody has to seek and find what’s true for them. I am just another soul on the path of Truth (with a capital T) – whatever that means. While I travel down the long and lonesome road of life’s ups and downs, I have chosen the art of writing as my tool to dig deeper, in hope of finding pieces of clues that will help me solve life’s mysteries. Like a transpersonal archeologist, I am digging deep, working on making sense of the classical and fantastically puzzling questions that revolve around the meaning of life and human existence. I am looking for clues to human existence that will shift our consciousness and help us see things through different, more loving, compassionate, forgiving and kinder lenses. So that we may not only transform our own being, but humankind collectively.]


Saturn returns when you chased down, it slows
Throw them into a new gravity

Harder to look yourself square in the eye
Easy to poke yourself, easy as pie
Easy to take off, harder to fly
Harder to wake Galileo.
Michael Stipe, lead singer of R.E.M. – Saturn Return


So what the hell is the Saturn Return, anyway?

As promised in my last article, here comes the answer. By the way, did you know? 

Michael Stipe, lead singer of R.E.M., wrote a song about it and Gwen Stefani even named an album after Saturn Return.

Your Saturn Return happens every twenty-eight to thirty years. So if you are reading this and you are in your late twenties or early thirties and have – let’s say - been feeling slightly ungrounded lately; in search of an anchor…

Well, chances are you are in your Saturn Return.

Any feelings of anxiety, panic attacks, world-weariness and floating feelings?


Astrologically, they are totally normal side effects of Saturn, as he returns to his original position in your birth chart and provokes a prompt and often intense phase of maturity and growth

Ever had growing pains as a child?

That’s kinda how it feels like. Just on a soul level.

Generally speaking, Saturn Return starts at around age twenty-seven. However, some people even claim that they begin to feel the effects of Saturn Return as early as twenty-five and the reverberations can last well into the mid-thirties. That’s how powerfully Saturn’s return to his original position in your birth chart can be, which astrologers have known about for centuries.

It is often characterized as a time of confusion, chaos and constriction.

Now, if you haven’t made it to this milestone yet and are in disbelief, I dare you to start a small but effective research project.

Identify all subjects in your area, which are thirty and above and do a survey of how they survived and made it into their early thirties. Chances are your results will reveal stories of turmoil, deep crisis, depression and fear.

It is a time of transformation.

The wind of change will blow through every corner of your life, making sure to clean out everyone and everything in its path that does not serve you any more, so that you can fully step into your life’s purpose.

The purpose your soul has consciously chosen before beginning this lifetime.

It is often profoundly personal and earth-shattering transformation and most of us go kicking and screaming.

Change is never pleasant, often painful, but always rewarding!

At the time of Saturn Return we will leave old things behind and start new. Your childhood is now finally and irrevocably over. You are graduating and stepping into the precipice of adulthood.

Sounds pretty scary so far?

Well, it is. But like everything on this planet there are always two sides to a coin.

Because Saturn Return also empowers you. He makes your stronger. And he will offer you wonderful gifts.

If I’ve learned one thing being the throes of my own Saturn Return it is:

Go with the flow. Let go. Breath. Accept. Breath. Stay strong. You are not being punished! (If you don't believe it click here)

And yes! All of this is happening for a reason. Even if you can’t make sense of it now. It will reveal itself to you when the time is right.

So cry long and hard if you need to. And then pick yourself up, move on and learn the lesson.

On a side note, Saturn loves, loves, loves humor. So don't take yourself too seriously. Can you laugh about yourself? Good. Because it suits you.

Saturn is the great teacher. He is Father Time. The Lord of Karma. The great Guru.

The word guru translates from Sanskrit as “great teacher who removes the darkness” and that is why Saturn often is linked to depression and darkness.

He needs to exaggerate it for you.

And he will make damn sure that you will hit that rock bottom, just so you can come out on the other side empowered and stronger than ever before.

Saturn is the great restrictor. It is a time where you get challenged to move out of your habits and previous behavior patterns.

However, the more you resist this challenge and the less you are willing to let go of old habits and behavior patterns, the more you will suffer.

This is important to note, as you have control over how much you will suffer through it. Can you let go of habits that no longer serve you? Can you transcend your own behavior patterns?

Yes. Saturn Return can feel a bit like a boot camp. You will sweat water and blood and cry your eyes out, but at the end of it you will come out entirely transformed.

After every valley; there will always, always, always be another mountain’s peak. Without darkness, we would never see and appreciate light.

That is what Saturn intends. Like a good father or teacher, he wants you to see your own bright, shining, soul’s light; your purpose here on Earth.

Because we need each and every one of you shining souls out there! 

Now more than ever, as planet Earth is shifting into this new paradigm.

Each one has a unique talent and gift they bring to this planet to heal and restore it! We need you to embrace the darkness so that you can step into your soul’s purpose and aid that shift!

So, I admit it. When I called my astrologer and spiritual teacher Geordie Numata in August 2015 to learn more about my birth chart and he told me my Saturn Return would commence in March 2016 I brushed it off, while feeling a slight subconscious panic creep up on me.

Been there already, done that already.

I thought. 

My life had finally settled and was moving along quite nicely. I was in a stable and loving relationship. I finally knew my purpose in life. I had reestablished myself in New York.

 I did not need change. I did not want change. Thank you, but no thank you, Mr. Saturn returning.

I remember anxiously asking:

“Well, what do you mean my Saturn Return will commence in February of 2016? Will it be painful?”.

Geordie chuckled warmly and replied:

“Saturn Returns are always painful, but they are also fantastic, grand and exciting”.

And so far Geordie was right. It has been quiet a crazy rollercoaster ride, since Saturn has returned to his position in my personal birth chart and started dancing tango with my soul.

This period has been more painful than any period in my life previously.

At the time, in early 2016...

...My relationship with the person I loved more than anything broke apart.

...My career path was only now, slowly revealing itself.

...I was living back with my parents 

If I was a pessimist, I would have said, it's all in the dumps. I would have been angry. I would have been yelling at Saturn:

“Why are you punishing me? Why are you taking seemingly good things away from me, only to make me suffer? What have I done wrong that you are putting me through all of this?”


And I admit. I have had fantasies about doing exactly that; rolling up my sleeves and giving Saturn a piece of my mind.

But I decided not to. Instead, I kept calm and acted like a lady. So I readjusted my petticoat and princess crown, turned to Saturn and in a determined, yet calm and polite voice, said:

“Okay, Saturn, Let’s tango. I trust this is for my highest good. Geordie already told me, this wasn’t going to be easy. But he also told me it was going to be an exciting and blessed time. Now, what can I learn from this? How can my soul grow from this? What can I be grateful for? ”.

The moment I surrendered, everything became easier. My consciousness around the situation shifted. I dropped into a space of love and gratitude. And Saturn responded accordingly. I started to see the blessings.

So next time, when you are in crisis, whether this crisis is related to Saturn’s Return or not, I want to encourage you to drop into your heart space. Find that space of softness and stillness. Then ask yourself: what can I learn from this? What are the blessings? What can I be grateful for?

Because there is always, always, always something to be grateful for.

In the next article, I will share my own toolbox of how to survive Saturn Return. Stay tuned!

Oh, and in case you are interested in having your own birth chart read, I recommend my teacher, healer and astrologer Geordie Numata very highly. You can contact him via email:

Stay positive.

Stay in the vibrations of love.

Keep your head up.

Keep your heart strong.

Keep your mind set.

Keep your hair long.

Sending you my unending love and blessings, 





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